I've been thinking about the kind of person I'm becoming.
I want to be kind and gentle and forgiving. I want to be thoughtful. I want to live simply. I want to have integrity. I want to be available and open. I want to be wise. I want to care for my body and soul so that I am well. More than anything, I want to love freely.
And I want all of these things to come easily. But they don't.
It's occurred to me lately that I've been drifting in directions that I haven't chosen. Depression and anxiety and cynicism are easy for me. I don't have to work at all to find myself in dark places. I can blame this on hormones or my history or illness or any number of other things, but none of that really matters in the end.
I am becoming.
Right now.
And that's a hopeful thing because it means I can become in another direction.
So I think I will.
ooooh. i like this one momma.
ReplyDeleteyou are becoming in a different direction. and it is beautiful.
i love you momma.
Amen to becoming. Bless you, Terri.
ReplyDeletefeeling lucky to be within earshot of your becoming even more beautiful than you already are.
ReplyDeletelove you terri.
danny: you inspire me, honey. i wanna be just like you when i grow up. :)
ReplyDeletesarah: i think we're on similar paths, though our circumstances are very different. thanks for listening.
di: i feel lucky that you're within earshot too, sister. love you a lot...
this is beautiful t. i love how you put it to words. your gift is amazing ...
ReplyDeletedave: you're amazing. love you.
ReplyDeleteThis made me smile.
ReplyDeleteSo many of the things you listed are exact descriptors that I have in mind for you already. (And because you shared some of your journey into simplicity with us earlier this year, I cannot hear the words "live simply" or "simplicity" without you coming to mind.)
PS: I *really* like the quote about listening that is on your blog banner right now. If this were Facebook, I would "like" it multiple times: like, like, like! :)
thank you christianne. you make me smile all the time. and i think those descriptors sound a lot like you. :)
ReplyDeletebecoming is very becoming on you. i look forward to this journey g-friend...
ReplyDeletelove you...
thank you mia
ReplyDeleteI think I am always wanting to be more... I wonder when I will get there..
ReplyDeletevery frustrating..
feeeel ya girl.
sy: i don't think any of us really "get there". but that's ok. at least we're pointed in a direction, and maybe that's what matters.
ReplyDeletewelcome.