Saturday, February 4, 2012

frost



I woke this morning to a world that was frosted over, as though snowflakes had grown spiky white spines out of every tree branch. It's too bad it was so grey because when this happens in bright sunshine it's almost too beautiful to imagine. It makes you want to cry.

I've been sick since Wednesday. I only want to sleep and sleep. And sleep. When I saw the branches so beautiful and singing their high notes as I woke I couldn't help but sing along. I'm thankful for this gratuitous display of beauty today.

A friend of mine posts a daily five each day to record things that she's grateful for. She's been doing it for over three years. I wonder how that would change your perspective over time? She must always be searching for things to include. In fact, most days she posts more than five things. Today I'm thankful for the frost and for my husband who cares for me when I'm not well. I'm thankful for friends who send me encouraging words. I'm thankful for phone calls from my grandchildren. I'm thankful for music. It's not so hard to think of things I'm grateful for when I'm paying any attention at all.

Today I'm thankful even in my sleepy half life.

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  1. you too. hope the tribe is well today.

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  2. This made me smile :) Thanks for mentioning me.

    It changes your perspective. I started because what seems like forever ago I read a study that argued that making a gratitude list had the same effect on your brain chemistry as taking a mild anti-depressant. I didn't want medications then, to combat the depression and anxiety I was feeling. At first, it was so hard to even find five reasons in the day to smile, or to be grateful. Sometimes the lists were highly repetitive. And slowly, oh so slowly, it became easier. If I hunt for reasons to smile, they're there, even on the hardest days. These days I take that anti-depressant, and I'm grateful for it, but I've learned that counting blessings is one of the most important practices in my spiritual life. On the hardest of days, if I pause and consciously shift my focus, hunting for something, anything that has brought a smile, or a moment of gratitude, the day shifts, the mental conversation and diatribe shifts. It gentles a little, and brings even the tiniest bit of rest.

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    1. I might have to try that. I've done it on and off here and there, knowing that a slight shift can make a big difference. I've got an embarrassing amount of blessings to draw from.

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  3. If I'm the most honest, I'll tell you that it took a long, long time to really feel the shift, but also that I'm so grateful I stuck to it. It's wonderful to recognize the abundance of blessings we have - that was one of the things that struck me. That and that fact that something as little and silly as a banana that someone left in a bizarre location can be a blessing if it brings laughter and joy with it! :D

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    1. that sounds about right. everything worthwhile takes a while to stick and pay off. i'm just trying to decide what form i'd like this to take. was it hard for you to make the commitment to do this on your blog?

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  4. it was really hard at first, though not so much because of committing to it on the blog, just because I struggled to have the mindset that there was anything in the day to celebrate. The blog actually helped a bit - by putting it out there publicly, I felt accountable to show up with something to record each day. I have a different friend who does it from time to time on her facebook status, and one who blogged for a time before moving on to other things.

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  5. It really was such breath-taking, utterly stunning beauty this morning...we were driving to the southeast metro mid-morning and were completely mesmerized.

    That said, as my body has gotten older, less nimble and with aches and pains in places I never knew existed before, I so struggle with the winter months . . . its becoming a time when I must intentionally find the good, the beauty because, mostly? my spirit just closes up. The pain has given me great perspective though on how others I know struggle with pain every single day of their lives. So, I'm really trying to embrace that, step into solidarity with them. Is that weird?

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  6. oh so sorry you've been sick. i hope you're seeing the end of it now and feeling much better.

    this is a life-changing concept~ gratefulness. it's shaken my world, saved my home and marriage and brain space.

    please feel better. xo

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  7. Yuck! Praying for rest for you. I'm also trying to add gratefulness to my life (and to Mirren's). Not sure yet how it changes things, but maybe it takes more time with some of us ;)

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  8. Hi Terri.
    You know, I meant to write a blog off of your last post, but I have been so weighted down that I have not felt up to it. So, this comment is in reference to your last blog. That blog really made me stop, think, and wonder about so many things in my life. It seems when I look compassionately at others, I see myself standing in their shoes, alive in their chaos, and it does humble me. Somehow, (I am not really sure why) but, when I encounter certain people, and I look into their faults, it makes me reflect inwardly. (I am in no wise a genius at this). But, somehow I begin to question myself, "I am like this? Is this me, and I am seeing a dim reflection of myself somehow?"

    Lately, since I have been in this celebrate recovery group, I have tried to exercise this patience with people there that are difficult and get on everybody's nerves. I have tried to challenge myself to find something of great worth in someone that I would rather avoid by nature. I often fail at this, but deep down I think it is the way we learn and grow as people when we can seek out the lovable in the unlovable......which is part of who you are Terri.

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